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Gabriel is standing up all the time now. He needs something to prop himself up and balance of course, but he loves standing so much he seems to be much less happy when he’s not. until he wants to get down. He fusses because he is afraid he will hit his head again. And he does that a lot.

Gabriel Standing with a Smile


Standing Up

Here Gabriel stands up. We tried to get him to do his balancing on his own like he did yesterday but to no avail.

He is so happy when we are both home. As soon as Kristina leaves he gets fussy. I am working very hard to make it so she doesn’t have to work much longer and we can resume our travels.

Words Gabriel Understands

He understands no, and any other word like it, like “nah” and “nope” and others. I try not to use no very much and never harshly. I don’t want him to go through the “no”stage. At least not for too long. So I try not to give it too much power, emphasis, or demand. And I make sure to say yes and synonyms just as often.

He knows Mommy and every now and then says it (started saying it a month ago). He won’t say mommy in front of his mom but he says it to me when he is hungry and wants her.
He knows bottle. Is he is fussy I can say “You want a bottle” and if that is what he wants he will stop fussing and wait for me to get it. Hungry works too.

He knows come here and comes to me perfectly. Kristina is working on this.


Trying to Stand and Balance on His Own (2.5 seconds today)

About a month ago Gabriel started using us, when we were laying in bed, to stand up hunched over, using our bodies to balance with his hands.

A few days ago Gabriel started crawling right (as opposed to his comando crawl he mastered at about 4 months). That same day he crawled he pulled himself up into standing position by himself.

\He has for a month and a half loved it when we picked him up and put him against my chair to stand upright and hold on. But a few days ago he did it all by himself, and then again and again. He’s constantly doing it now. he loves standing upright. He is doing it over and over.

But today Gabriel just stoop up on his own for about 2.5 seconds. It too was funny. He was lifting himself up in standing position over and over holding onto me or furniture and I said to Kristina “He is soon going to be trying to stand and balance on his own.” Then he tried and succeeded for that brief moment. Having a kid is wishing you had a camera on just rolling indefinitely at all times.

He wants to walk so badly, I would not be surprised if he’s going to take his first wobbly step before he masters crawling. Right now he crawls slowly  But he so badly wants to stand and walk like us.

Gabriel Crawling (not just comando style)

Today all of the sudden Gabriel decided to crawl. He still does the comando style on the mattress, but on our tile floor he crawls with alternating hands and knees.


Here is a video of him crawling both ways.


Kissing the Mirror

For the first time in about a month I gave Gabriel a hand mirror to play with. He keeps kissing it over and over again. It’s hysterical. And he talks to it in the way that he does, the gah gah gah and the grrrs, and the blah blahs.

Commando Crawling

Gabriel spent a day crawling about a month ago. But he quickly decided that belly scooting was much more efficient. It’s funny how babies do that. They discover something and then don’t do it again for weeks or months june 24th


So Many Thoughts…

I have so many thoughts looking at this picture with my new camera. So I will ramble a bit and just let it out.

jun-21When I got arrested (when they claimed I had violated my probation), Kristina told her mom what was happening. She told her about my charges and my past. Her mom was on our side and very understanding, supportive, and nice.

We did not tell her father.

I am open about my past, but I didn’t feel like explaining myself to anyone anymore. I grew tired of it, and I would be honest when it came up, but I had no plans to bring it up.

When we decided on a home birth, Kristina’s mom panicked. She reacted inappropriately. One of these inappropriate reactions was calling Kristina’s dad, her ex-husband, and demanding that he call the police and try to get me taken away and then somehow force or convince Kristina to do a hospital birth.

She told him that I was a child molester, and that I was holding Kristina hostage.

I understand that he told her he would have no part of her craziness, and the decisions we were making were ours to make even if he didn’t agree with them, either. And he said my past was none of their business unless I wanted to tell them.

And I love him for that. I hope I would be as good a man in that situation.

He bought us a camera. Not because we needed one. We had one. But he figured we would feel obligated to take more pictures to send to him.

When I got the camera I was like, “Why? We don’t need this.”

Now I can’t stop taking pictures,. It’s a much better camera than our old one. It does nice video, too.

And I thank him for that, too.

I also think about how badly he wants in on Gabriel’s life. He wasn’t there for Kristina as much as she would have liked him to be, but he wants to be there for Gabriel. It has me thinking, thinking about choices. And it has me thinking about how I am not there for Sage. And about how my ex-wife and Kristina’s father’s ex wife are very similar. And it has me hoping with all my heart that I am there for Gabriel the way I thought I would be for Sage.

I look at his face and I see hers. I miss her so much. And I love them both. And the more I spend time with my son, the more room I have for more love in my heart for life and for others. Those who have wronged me, and giving me my path, and those who have warmed my heart with their choices. Life is a heck of a ride.

Gabriel’s First Protest


Gabriel’s first protest was the March Against Monsanto. His heart wasn’t really in it as you can see, but the important thing is he showed up!


How Gabriel Eats Watermelon at 5 Months

How does Gabriel eat watermelon? Like a boss!!! He sucks the life right out of it!